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Making friends, when out of practice
Making friends seemed to be a full time job when I was in my teens and 20s. Now that I am a 40-plus year old woman with a career, child and husband, I am too busy and lazy to make new friends. I could say I do not need more friends. It might be true,…
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A day in the life of xxx
The day has been dragging in a in-between stage of stream of consciousness and functionality. She has barely moved from her chair. Her fingers and eyes are moving from item to item, ticking off the to-do-list. Physical motivation is in place. Yet somewhere in her body, in the back of her head, or the very…
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Disconnection and rebalancing
A little kid poked his head into our door way right as I was about to step out with our daughter. His expressive body won my heart immediately as he did the first time I met him outside the library. A new kid on the block brought a new perspective. His ability to build connection…
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I want a more intimate relationship with failure
My relationship with failure has never been close. I have not failed enough. I had plenty of misses. However, I limited the quantity of failures by only doing relatively safe things. Even if I do not intentionally refrain from somethings for fear of failure, I know now that I subconsciously steered myself to safer endeavors….
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Happiness is the calm acceptance of the moment
As I walked across campus to meet students one morning, this thought occurred to me. I am happier than I have ever been. Yet, on the outside, I must appear less interesting to some. When I was younger, I sought out the company of many. I was lonely and empty. I needed a lot. The…
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Recognize, Feeling and Fighting traumatic pain in real time–a personal story
I started this piece about many months before I left Korea. I am just now having a little time to complete it. The traumatic consequences described here is at the center of many internal struggles. It is still part of my daily struggle. I do not believe I will ever be rid of it, but…